Artober 2025

I have been on the struggle bus the past year or so. In fact my struggle bus had 4 flat tires and the tow truck sent to take it back to the shop got a flat too. The tow company was finally able to get a new truck out to tow my struggle bus back to the shop. There is still no details on when the struggle bus will be ready to go.

It is really frustrating having ideas and wanting to create stuff but not being able to. I know it is not something that is special to me or to artists. There are all kinds of things that have similar effects, like having ADHD.

I am going to TRY to participate in the TAMU Artober list. When we created it I had all kinds of awesome ideas. Now that it is time for the doing I am less sure.

I want to say I have been busy, and I have. Just not ART busy. No markets, not creating art daily or even weekly. I still go to the artists meetup and make sure I socialize. Some days I feel more up to creating art and other days I feel bereft of my ability.

I cleaned out the room my office/studio is in. It is 100% mine now. I am downsizing as much as I can. I hope that having less will give me breathing space and allow me to see what I have and what I can create with it. I even got a little day bed so I can relax and stretch out while waiting for paint to dry. I am not quite done with the decor part, but I am really happy with how far it has come.

I have been thinking seriously about streaming again. Maybe 2026. I have some ideas, and have even done some research on making it happen. There are days where it feels more possible and probable and then other days where it is some whisp of a desire.

I miss so many things about how I was feeling in 2022, a little burnt out but things were possible. I really hope to get back to that hopeful feeling soon. I feel like a part of me is locked away in a box and I don't have the key. That I have been trying to pick the lock with a flimsy piece of wire that is to short and to flimsy to ever work. I am always looking for the key or something else that will work to get the box open.

I am attaching some of the stuff I have actually created since my last post. It is basically nothing. Maybe by the end of October I will have something more to share.